
Ann Weil’s Blue Dog Road Trip brings the reader along on a journey no mother expects to take, as she tells her story—one poem at a time—of raising a child with mental illness.
Through free verse, sonnets and haiku, Weil sends a message to moms: you are not alone.
Her circumstances are far from unique, and Weil believes in the healing power of open conversation about taboo subjects. She hopes that by sharing her experiences and baring her emotions, dreams and disappointments, other parents might find support as they endure their own struggles. This book begins at the onset of her son’s illness, and follows its jagged trajectory as Weil seeks help, questions her worth as a mother, and fights a daily battle against fear. Like parents everywhere, Weil loves her child with every ounce of her being and has no manual on how to deal with his severe depression, anxiety, eating disorder and suicidality. She is open and honest about her mistakes and doubts, and the toll taken on her own mental health. Ultimately, though, this book is one of hope, and readers will laugh through their tears. Hers is a difficult trek, but Weil infuses humor and grace along the way with poems like “Places Boys Will Pee”, and “What to Do When Your Therapist Compliments You on Reaching Acceptance but Says Peace is the True Destination”. From heartbreak to redemption, it’s a wild ride.
Punctuated by haunting haikus & threaded with metaphor, memory & longing, Ann Weil’s BLUE DOG ROAD TRIP invites readers into the complex grief & disorientation of mothering, mental illness & familial estrangement, the powerlessness & surrender that is necessary even as we ask–What is it about love / that won’t let go, even as it sinks me? Part of living with estrangement also means living with unanswerable questions, & Ann poses these questions without apology, without expectation of answers. While these poems ask readers to brave a deep dive into love & loss, they also offer artfully wrought reflections on what it means to grieve the living & to endure what we think we cannot, to dig a body-sized hole in the yard. Climb in and lie down. / Gaze at the blue sky above. Climb out.
Joan Kwon Glass, author of DAUGHTER OF THREE GONE KINGDOMS & NIGHT SWIM
Blue Dog Road Trip is a riveting collection of the lingering trauma of mental health struggle and the estrangement of a precious yet troubled son. Through free verse, haiku, sonnets and prose poems, Ann Weil chronicles her story as a parent faced with an impossible crisis. A heartbreaking yet necessary collection: a vivid portrait of a poet and mother's ineffable love amidst unyielding hardship.
Jose Hernandez Diaz, author of Bad Mexican, Bad American
Ann Weil’s second collection is for lovers of poetry, yes. But it is also for anyone who has yet to discover poetry’s consolations, the way words can “open wide / their fleshy arms” to help us hold the grief of loving someone we are powerless to save. “I understand, this game of lines / and casts, the baited hook that catches light, / catches me as I bite again, no match / for your allure, the pull of your reeling.” It is for anyone who has wondered how to let go. “Dig a body-sized hole in the yard. Climb in and lie down. Gaze at the blue sky above. Climb out.” And it is for those who already know that letting go means losing a version of the self. “And now that you’ve gone, / I am a...stunned door hanging wide on its hinges.” At the heart of Blue Dog Road Trip is “all will be well, all,” an astonishing haiku that uses Julian of Norwich’s famous line to redefine wellness as all of it: loss, rage, resistance, as well as brief, honeyed rest stops and narrow off-ramps to hope. “[T]he pupil / of an eye / lets in the light / of the whole world.” Weil’s speaker is indeed a “student of the I,” a mother “cracked, wide open,” yet still standing, learning to “let go the breath [I]’ve been holding since this whole thing began,” finding a new, “quiet comfort / in catch and release.”
Erin Redfern, Spellbreaking and Other Life Skills

Ann Weil is the author of Lifecycle of a Beautiful Woman (Yellow Arrow Publishing, 2023). Her work has received multiple nominations for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net, and most recently appears in Pedestal Magazine, DMQ Review, Maudlin House, 3Elements Review, Okay Donkey, SWWIM Every Day, and The Shore. Weil is a former special education teacher (K-12) and university professor who lives with her husband and soul-dog in Ann Arbor, MI, and Key West, FL.
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