I tried to shove my too much into my pocket, 
forearms straining as I struggled to smash 

her between my palms until she burst into sequins—
a confetti crime scene. My too much crowned
 
herself Queen, superglued rhinestones to a scepter,
put on a parade and sneezed pink boa feathers 

for weeks after. She spends hours color-coordinating
selfies she sends to each of my partners so no one forgets 

what she looks like. She asks 
doyoulikemedoyoulikemedoyoulikeme do   you   like

music? She only gets that last part out 
because everyone loves		music. 

She wore glitter 
pumps to my book release, 

and when the boy made of sandpaper 
didn’t come, she cried until she grew a tail 

and swam in the saltiest sea. She lives in the hollow 
behind my voice box, twists around the tiny tendrils 

of all the times I’ve ever been 
alone. Sometimes I forget to breathe. 

My too much is the color the sun stings.
When I put my too much in water 

she sprouts arms and legs and introduces 
herself to the people I am trying to date.
 
I am always surrounded by an ocean 
of my own undoing. Ex-lovers have labeled her 

unloveable. I have conflated the two in my head. 
When I try to lock my too much in a closet 

she reminds me I’ve already ripped 
that door off its hinges. She won’t stop telling 

every new person I meet how queer 
and polyamorous I am like it’s a personality trait. 

She printed out a picture of my ass and nailed it
to the bedroom wall. My wife reminds me 

we’re not the only people we invite into the bedroom 
and both me and my too much grin 

because we never half-ass anything,
and I’ve got my whole ass on the wall to prove it. 

BIO: Tyler Hurula (she/her) is a poet born and raised in Denver, Colorado. She is queer, polyamorous, and lives with her wife and two cats. Author of Love Me Louder (Querencia Press). Her poems have been published previously in Anti-Heroin Chic, Aurum Journal, Quail Bell Magazine, Beyond the Veil Press, Olney Magazine, and more. She values connection, authenticity, and vulnerability, and tries to encompass these values in her writing as well as everyday life.